Fairy Tales Don't Always Have A Happy Ending, Do They?

I love Baskara. I love him so much. No matter what he had did to me...

But this time, he'd gone too far. He had an affair. Apa sih kurangnya aku? Apa yang buat kamu ngelakuin itu semua? Aku kurang cantik? Oke. Aku sayang kamu apa adanya, bukan ada apanya. You broke up our 5 months with this way? What do you want from me, hah? Okay, if you did this again to me, I'll slap you in the face before karma do!

I don't know who's wrong or right. His affair was too bitchy or my ex was an asshole?

I know I'm not your any-who anymore, but pleaaaaseeeeeee, go to hell if you didn't meant your words like this "Awi, I love you. Aku bakal jagain kamu. Aku bakal jadi orang pertama yang hapus air matamu kalo kamu nangis. Jangan khawatir, aku bakal selalu ada buat kamu."

Sebenarnya aku bener-bener kecewa sama Baskara. Dia boleh tinggalin aku kalo emang udah gak ada rasa sayang sedikitpun di hatinya dia. Gak usah pake selingkuh. I'm fine. Aku bakal coba move on kalo memang dia lebih milih si orang ketiga. Yeah, at least, he's the best thing that's ever been mine...

The Little Things She Needs.

I know I'm not perfect, but I'm an human. Has heart and soul. I love my boyf more than anything. I give everything he asked to me. Like called him everynight, text him first, or sometime meet him in a certain place. Yeah. I deal it. But I want him to know, that I need him to respond my thoughtfulness. This is several needed from me, apple...

1. TIME

You're tooooo busy now, dear. Looked at yourself. Compare, you're more concerned with your friends or me? Kapan waktunya buat aku? And then, school's problem. You're in an exam right now. Oh yeah. I can understand this one. I supported you full, darling. Good luck and don't messed with it.

2. HUG

A hug can represented you so much love in it. I believe that. Cause when I hugged you, I feel so free. So warm and my scared disappear at all. I feel comfortable when I'm with you. Thanks for the hugs during this 2 years ({})

3. ROSES

Roses. Sound so ordinary, but I love it so much. They're pretty, seems like me LOL JK. Roses are special in my eyes. It symbolized how much you care about your girlf :'D (my own opinion). 

Three main things. It doesn't spend much money. Just sharing my thought. Wish he reads this..

Fighting for Nothing.

Boyfriend. They're suck, but whenever he's not beside me, I feel empty, like I have nobody. Fight is our daily activity. Baskara Kepakisan is one of the most annoying boy in this world, but without him, my day means nothing. Almost everyday, like it's so usual. Hurt, yes, it's hurt to get his anger almost everyday. Don't he knows that? Feels like I'm unimportant, like he gets boring with me. Like yesterday and today. Yesterday, he left me to walked along with his friends to Kuta, rrrrrr, I'm trying to patient, but increasingly he doesn't care to me anymore. When he gets home, I feel relieved. He text-ed me, that he said it was raining outside and he got wet. I feel pity, so I discouraged to be angry. I asked him to took a shower, and had a dinner, then he continued his activity to text-ed me. And today!!!!!! He went to Batur and Besakih with his school. Mana waktunya buat aku? You're too busy, sweety...

Ohya, sometimes, the hurt-est thing is, his harsh words. Hh :'

HURT

I Miss You So Much And You Don't Deserve It.

I hate this feeling. Where I feel I really-really need him when he's not. I hate my self for doing it. It was too useless for me. After too long not talking with you, you're still you. Your eyes, your voice. It makes me fly! How could you did it to me? I don't even know, why I must thinking about this problem. Useless. Weird. Hah! I hate my self!!!!!! God, help me to forget him :( It was too hard for me for do it by myself...

Trust No Man, Fear No BITCH!

Special post for my lovely Jelita :)

Be strong. One word means everything. You can called her wonder woman, and called her EX JERKASS! I feel disappointed with Ars, seriously, he brokes my sister's heart. 2 years useless. Dreams, memories. If I'm as Jelita, I would die at this time, right now! Who would not hurt if it is decided boyfriend and the boyfriend had another, and not just one, but TWO!! Oh how hurts it is. I know, there's absolutely guilty's feeling in Ars. He just easy to come and easy to go.

Jelita, please don't hurt yourself for those fucking memories! He can, so why you not? You can do it more than what he did to you, dear...

Jelita told me, on her birthday, Ars gave her 12 roses. 

"Biar bisa dia jagain adek sampai 12 taun kedepan, trs kita nikah, buat anak, namanya wah aju. Cita-cita kita berdua, punya artshop di kuta sama jimbaran. Sekarang mana mungkin kayak gt. Udah beda, udah berubah, gara2 YUNA. Gabakal adek pernah bisa lupain dia. Yang namanya Arsandi, sampe adek punya suami, gak akan adek lupain."

How sweet they were? Now, it's just a dirty memories.

Fucking BITCH who've stole his heart. Damn! Why her?

I hate her too much.

This Is What We Called Best Friends Forever!

Oh how they know me well, they are my best friends. I love them so much till words even can't describe it!

from right to left: vira-gege-me

 My friends from my childhood. Gege and Vira. Gege is my friends since we're together at the same playground. Until now, we're still close each other. I love you :) and Vira is my friend since the elementary school. She is nice and funny. I called her "mom" :p unfortunately, Vira must have to go to the other place out there, Jakarta. She moved there because her father's work. I miss you, dear. Please back to Bali as soon you can..

left: Anik, right: Okta

The smartest two! Oh how genius they are! I'm so proud to be their friend seriously! When the exam came closer (when we still together at the 9th grade), they actually pushed me to study and study! Oh without them, I think I can't be like today. Thanks guys! You both smart!

Danny Agus Pramana

I won't explain this one :p he's totally freaking out, jerk, badass, oh you're so fucking annoying danny! Haha but thanks anyway, your knowledge was so wide that I'm afraid to lose you lol JK! He's nice, fussy, and hmmm Chinesse :p I miss you, Danny! I think we can't together again, cause we're too far different..

Thefany Bella

My friend in crime \m/ Thefany Bella! Hey you dude, I miss you so baaaadd!!!!!! How are you?? Haha hope you well :p She is a girl but look alike a boy! You can't believe it? I'm serious haha JK. But she is nice, she is sometimes mushy in a certain time haha. We must meet this holiday, bel!

Widya Utami

Widya Utami Putri. How I miss this little cute girl :& haha lol, dude how are you? Are you fell cozy in your new environment? I'm worrying about you sometimes, wid. Hope when we met, you will share about your new life there :') Me miss you..

Shanty Pradnya Paramitha

My 2nd mom :D Shanty Pradnya Paramitha. How are you, mom? I'm missing you.. She is nice, veryyyyyy nice I guess. She is our mom. 9c's mom. Huaaaaa, how you there? Please tell me about your boyfriend! I can't wait to your new complicated love story! lol

Faustine Farellya

Faustine Farellya. Seroiusly I love her name so much! You can search in this world that this name was too rare hahaha. I miss you! I miss being silly with this people :p How are you? Pokoknya nanti kalo udah sampe Bali, bbm aku ya fa! Awas nggak :p

Wisnu Wardhana

Wisnu Wardhana. He is a drummer (pensiunan ;p) He is funny but sometimes crunchy wakakakak. I miss being silly with him too. RRrrrr but he is sometimes annoying too ;p Good luck for the Pasma's contest. Hope the best for Pasma!

Dentria-Dwipa-Me-Andin

Hay dude (‾▼‾) I love being with you you and you! Hope we will be last forever and will never be separate with time, person, and many obstacle that we will face. hahaha! I love you! 

8c with Pak Jigeh.

9c @ Ivan's house :')

I LOVE THEM!

Yogyakarta, I miss him.

One year past. It was the sweetest moment ever that I can't forget forever. Previously, I want to aplogize to my boyfriend. I'm sorry dear. You're the my number one, but I can't lie to my self that this moments are important for me :(
Yogyakarta, exactly one year ago. It must be the most perfect moment that I've ever had. You-Know-Who, I won't mention his name.
My scarf :( it has so many memories.. I can't forget.

(moi: left)

Is it the same scarf we were wearing???

I miss the old times. The old me, the old you, and of course the old us. hhh. I wish I could turn back the time to the one year previous, but I can't. I know. I've had a boyfriend. I love him so much. More than I love this fvcking guy.

Okey guys, just share my mind. I'm much better. Thanks my diaries. See you soon!

And Everytime I Looked at You, It's Like The First Time.

How could I explain my feelings? I think I'm crazy. What's wrong with me? He's my boyfriend, already, but, why did my heart can't stop beat faster when I see his face and smiles? Oh God, are You kidding me? I'm, hmmmmmm... Oh! I can't explain mine. I'm too in love with this little boy. Hey dude, do you have the same feeling with mine? I wish you do, darling. You mean everything to me. You give me a fight. A new spirit. You are like a light in the darkness. You are MINE.

Remember your promises, dear. I don't want you to dissapoint me. I love and miss you, I do everday, every time, every seconds in my life. Don't leave me.

Ah! I don't know why, I've posted five different posting with the same topics and that's all about him. I don't understand why -____-

Hey Duck! I Love You! Don't stop giving me a spirit, dear. That's the most important thing I need from you.

Specially for my beloved Baskara:

I love you so much, dear :)

I'm So In Love With The Undpredictable One.

I'm sorry, my dear blog. I think I'm too busy with my school, yeah? I'm too hmmmmm, getting crazy I guess. Okay, now let's chat!

I think I had fallen in love again with HIM. He's not perfect. He's not handsome like my ex-HTS. He's ordinary. I love his kindness, his honest, and his cute duck face. He's a real man, although he's YOUNGER than me.

I DON'T FVCKING CARE!

Is that wrong when I am falling in love with someone who is younger than me? Who's care?

He is too perfect for me I think. Cause he really-really wants me to be the one who loved him. Hmmmm, he's not Prince Charming, Nick Jonas, nor Bruno Mars who can make me a sweet song like his song "Just The Way You Are". He's Anak Agung Gede Baskara.

Hey, listen to me dear..

I love you. As I told you before. I just love you with NO reason. I love you because I love you, and I love you because you are YOU.

I know I'm not good for you, but I think I can give anything, the best for you, for us. Don't hate me because I'm too spoiled and too easy to get angry. I'm mad at you because I dear you, baby.

Don't leave me for those bullshit reasons. I know you for sure.

See how much I love you, dear?

Please don't go anywhere.

Hey Dude, It's Already TEN!!

Thank You for being my lover 'till today. But I must move on. I can do this anymore. You such giving a 'wtf' unspooken words, and why I am still here waiting you? It was stupid, I think.

And now, if we still once closed, this must be TEN months we were together. Remember last time we talked, dude?? I forgot. You just too hate me, and I don't know what mistakes I've been made of.

I miss you. But I must move on. Stop today. I'll let you go, Ade..

Bye :)